December is always a month that flies by. There seems to be so much that needs to be done, from getting presents ready to preparing for the new year. Resolutions. Final words. Trying to make a big splash of a year that suddenly seems too short.
And it is now January 2015. I am about to undertake the bearings of a new year, one which I feel inadequately prepared for. In 2015 my main resolution is the word MORE. Love MORE, be MORE intimate with God, learn MORE French, be MORE independent, be MORE spontaneous.
I've realised that 2014 marks the beginning of independence for me in more than one ways. I am now 21 years old, a legal adult. It's the first year I've been geographically alone and (for the most part) financially self-reliant. I no longer feel overwhelmed by the world when I am apart from my parents, and I no longer cry because of it. I understand that when apart, Tim and I have to lead our own lives, I cannot demand that our time spent together remains constant. I have started to take of my body; lotions, essential oils, perfumes etc. I like my room and my belongings, I like the way I dress. I am proud of myself for learning how to drive and for driving. I trust in God's plan and I am secure in my life's situation, even if I don't always want things this way. I have accomplished a lot. I am becoming a woman.
When I was spending time with Tim in HK, it dawned upon me that everything was just so right. Time with his parents was sweet, my attitude towards them has changed for the better and I look forward to spending more and more time with them. Meeting his extended family seemed so natural - it was so easy. And our families having lunch together, even more so. God, if you are willing, I foresee myself marrying this man in the very near future.
During the first annual elder & staff Christmas dinner, Rick stood up and went around the table, thanking us for our services to CCC. When he came to me, he said, "Not yet married but already a mother of many." I love that saying. I love that I am making a difference when it comes to the lives of these young children, and it gives me great glee to know that they are my friends. I may not yet understand what God's plan for me is, but perhaps some day I will look back and see further beauty in my position at CCC.
Despite being the youngest staff, that dinner felt right. I am so honoured to be part of such a team and I never want to forget that. They encourage always, and they uplift continuously. With mommy gone, the support I have received has been amazingly generous. I am never alone and I can only thank the team for that.
During one of the busy December Sundays, a lot of the high school graduates came back to CCC. Being able to exchange greetings made me realise that CCC is indeed my home. I was happy to see them and so so proud that our paths had previously crossed, however briefly.
Notes from sermon, Follow Jesus:
1. To follow Jesus, we should know he is the One and Only at a personal level
2. To follow Jesus, we need to continue to confess "I still lack one thing"
3. To follow Jesus, we need courageous actions to grow our faith
4. Following Jesus, we will receive our reward many times
*The notes above are something I would like to keep in my mind during the year of 2015.
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