Merry Christmas to everyone in the world, may you blessed with happiness and joy but most importantly, warmth and love.
I'm not feeling so happy dandy this christmas. The sermon on Sunday keeps coming back to me: What do I need to trust God with? What is God asking me to trust him with? I desperately want to know the answer so that I can put that into his hands and know that that particular area of my life will be okay, it will be saved. Actually, having written that I know that its silly because in reality all aspects of my life are being touched and affected by God. So I really should have not worry about anything. But it would be nice to know concretely and specifically about one aspect.
I think it has to do with my school work, and perhaps just my life here in Beijing in general. But I can't confirm that. I feel like I haven't heard from God regarding the answer just yet, and so I'm waiting. I'm pondering and waiting on his answer.
Last week I saw Mike Barbalas at Bean Tree and was surprised (yet not quite) to see him there. Then a few days later I saw Jason and Angie Hunemuller at Lush. I feel like God is at work again. He is telling me that my communities - Shunyi and Beiyi - are interlinked and showing me that he is in charge. Of course, I already know he is in charge, but he is reminding me to put him first and to really seek him. So that's 2/3 of "special coincides." God always works in 3s in my life so I'm keeping my eyes wide open to see the third person. I know that it will be interesting and it will encourage me greatly once again. God is amazing. I love that he is in charge and that he knows what I need.
I'm going to be praying for myself this upcoming year. I want to be in an intimate relationship with God and I want to depend wholly on him, especially since this is perfect timing, what with me being alone in Beijing.
Merry Christmas baby Jesus. Thank you for coming to save my sins. I'm so grateful for you and I love you so very much.
