I thought a lot about what my heart desired and the difference between desire, greed and fear. I was unable to come to any conclusion and that's when I prayed to God. I prayed for his peace.
Philippians 4:7 "And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus."
Last night before I slept I felt a sense of urgency, a desperate need to talk to Tim. Our talk cleared up the air and it opened my eyes to the mystery which is my emotions. It dawned upon me that I have not been feeling like an integral part of Tim's life because the level at which we have been bonding simply has been inadequate. Tim raised the point that I do not question him about the specifics in his life. I know this to be true, but the reason for my lack of questions is simply because I always naturally assumed that he would share such facts voluntarily. Once again, I am reminded that we are not made the same. God designed us uniquely; he knitted us differently in our mothers' wombs!
Late afternoon today Tim called me and we had an extensive talk. It was sensational. I felt warmth and love oozing out from him. He disclosed the details of his night and I listened attentively.
These incidents have me thinking about something I learnt in Psychology class: the more details you share with another person, the closer you will feel to that person. And I do believe, that's exactly what happened!
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